MY COUNTRY, MY BLOOD

Landscape of Dreamed, Naive and Departed Love - 100x70cm, colored pencils on paper

Landscape of Excretion 1, 2, 3 - 100x70cm, colored pencils on paper

My Emotional Landscape - 190x100cm, red fineliner 0,25mm on paper 

Vienna 2017 - 2020

The blood in my body forms different silhouettes of my inner landscapes, emotions become an inner compass. Their marks represent rejection and disgust of boundaries, they form an individual map of love and softness. Bloodstains, wounds, bruises, spit and excretions in my own body become an archive of memories. The landscapes drawn long for the desire to return home, a utopian place without rejection and hatred. Physical states become peripheral through drawing, mental localizations become the center of this work. Detailed structures of 'Landscape of dreamed, departed and naive Love' are reminiscent of a microscopic study of human flesh.  This constantly oscillates and reshapes itself, its form remaining fluid and constantly changeable. 

In the installation 'My Emotional Landscape' there are 260 needles with emotions that I have collected over the years in my home country.  It becomes my own cartography so that I can inwardly come to peace with these emotions. Concepts of power and ownership of patriarchal society are concepts of violence and domination. With my concept I demonstrate the rejection of norms and traditions that exclude, discriminate and oppress diverse bodies from the landscape. Fluid queer bodies and their relationship to being at home is not marked off with flags and anthems, they do not have currency, churches, offices or parliaments. We own only what we have within us.